Find Rest In Jesus
Rest this is not a word we use or obey often. There is always something to be done. Work, laundry, cleaning, cooking, writing, the list goes on and on. The enemy often clutters our minds with a neverending to-do list. It is when I pause and seek direction in the Word I find rest.
Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. Psalm 62:5-8 NIV
If you are anything like me I think you need to read that scripture again! Maybe you need to read it out loud! Let make it personal to us.
Yes, my soul does find rest in God; all my hope come from Him. God is my rock and my salvation, he is my fortress, I will not be shaken by anything of the enemy schemes. My salvation and my honor depend on God, not the evil one. God is my mighty protector, my refuge. I trust in Him at All times, he desires for me to pour my heart out to Him as I seek refuge in Him.
I have lived a busy life for many years. I have chased worldly success, material things, and luxury vacations. I felt it was important to show my family and my children that with hard work and perseverance comes great reward. I had the tenacity, the drive, and true grit there was nothing that was going to keep me from being “successful”.
I dropped out of school at 16 got a fulltime job in order to help manage the bills. I had no regard for the importance of education because I was not the smartest student and I really didn’t feel that school was for me. For many years I mad just enough to support my family and keep little food on the table. I made sacrifices in my career to be close to my children while they were little. Once my son finished preschool I decided it was time to seek a big girl job outside of managing the school all my children attended. God, opened a door of opportunity for me to manage a small insurance brokerage office and this is where my career took off. After years of educating myself and getting licensed, I landed a job with the largest insurance company in the world. This is totally another amazing God thing! I was blessed go to work in a big highrise building with a corner office like you see in the movies. I was that girl with a GED, little education, and I was playing with the big boys in the corporate world. I was traveling to different cities, training people on a national level, I was important, I was happy.
Well, I thought I was happy. Looking back now I was happy! Happy that I didn’t have the stress of not having enough money to provide for my families basic needs. Happy that I didn’t have to check my bank account before placing gas in my car. Happy that I didn’t have to keep a calculated tab of what I was placing in my grocery cart. Happy we could vacation more than once a year. I was by all accounts happy but completely lost!
This happiness came with a price it came with sacrifices and the only reward was worldly things. I sacrificed my relationships with my family, I missed out on the precious younger years with my children, but most importantly I lost connection with who I truly was and who I am in Christ. I lost my connection to Faith. The enemy kept me so busy that I did not have time for my faith daily. I did not seek God’s guidance daily, I did not get in the Word or pray daily. I was a Christian that simply went to church every Sunday got my fill of the word and worship checked the box and went about my week.
God shook me in a big way on September 16, 2016. He shook my faith and he shook my life and changed in a mighty way. This is the day I lost my mother unexpectedly when she went septic. There was not an opportunity for goodbye or reconciliation of any kind. She was simply gone in the blink of an eye. I had not experienced the type of pain that comes with the loss of losing someone you love unconditionally. The hurt was so deep I was not sure how I was going to survive. How was I going to be able to move past it to continue with my busy life? When you have no choice you suck it up the best you can and you move on. I was a shell of a deeply broken woman for many months after the loss of my mother. I would cry the whole way to work and the whole way home. I would cry myself to sleep in secret as my heart burst with grief daily. I cried out to God to save me from my pain and deep sorrow. I cried for him to allow my busy life to pause just long enough for me to get a grip on this sorrow.
May 2017 God pressed pause. I walked away from my high paying corporate career and decided that day to dedicate my life, my path, my purpose to Jesus. I decided to seek Him for the comfort and understand I had in my grief. I laid down my busy schedule and picked up my pink bible and started reading and seeking my purpose in His truths. I still fight the enemy and the to-do list he places in my mind. I recognize this is his way of trying to keep me from connecting with God through His word. This is the enemies way fo distracting me from praying!
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 NIV
Today I have time to rejoice in all things big and small. The birds provide a great reminder to rejoice with a song every morning because we are thankful to be alive in Jesus!
Read about the events that happened after writing this story here.